我没恒心吗？还是你从不体谅。

就算我明知无法取悦每一个人，就算我知道不是每一个人都有办法了解你。
可是可不可以不打击？

我想赚多一点钱，开始做自己想做的东西。
你又叫我叫补习， 放工回家教补习，家务没人帮，其它都说不得空。
已经完全没完时间了。却还要被说没有恒心。
为什么我一个人做那么多，你们不体谅，还要说我没恒心呢？

累了，想休息。
又说没恒心。

我没恒心吗？还是你们没体谅过我？
我一直都在做，你不懂。
我什么都自己做。
你们什么都没有帮。
就只会加把嘴打击别人。
为什么你们都可以说累？我不可以？

你们累的时候，什么都不用做。
我累的时候却还是什么都做。
为什么？

你们对我公平吗？？？
有体谅我吗？
有想帮助我吗？

都没有。。。。。。。。。。。。。

花语茶馆。 Florid Teahouse

I was thinking to do online business quite a long time ago.
but didnt really proceed.
first is i know it will be very hard, i might don't even have time to rest.
your time will be bundled by this business.
you will need to do research, how to promote, how will be the packaging, the photo, etc
you will have no time to rest, especially i am doing this after work.

2nd is because i worried alot, i have no idea how to run a business,
i have no idea how to plan, how to promote.
somehow, i am really lost.

3rd is because i am lazy, i dont deny it.
i don't want to start, i want to rest.

4th is because i am face saving ppl,
i hate asking ppl to like my page, i hate telling ppl that this is my business,
i hate using my personal fb to inform others.

5th is because i always think that, things will get better soon, is ok
i can survive with just little salary, as long as i dont buy, dont shop, dont eat expensive food.

But then i changed my mind, my life will not be changed if i dont work hard.
my life will not be changed if i dont move on.
i cant expect my life will get better without working hard, without changing something.

So i decided to do online business.
i launched my page on 3rd december 2017.
officially telling ppl that i am doing online business.

I have no time to rest, once i got home from work, settle everything then i open my laptop again.
come out with a plan, think what to do next, etc...

i am still worry, i am still lost.
the beginning is always the hardest part.
i wont give up.

lazy will not change my life. just do it.

someone just said you are now moving on because you no longer scare to ask ppl to like your page, to support you.  not even invite, but also send msg one by one.
not sure where does this courage came from, but i just did it.
dont care how ppl say about me, just do it.
i used to be hating this alot, but when the thought changed, then it's not that hard anymore.

i always conform myself that, a new year will be better.
cheating myself*
expect everything can be used for a super long time without the need to repair.
but, think again.
how could this possible..
naive.

Before ending the post, i would like to introduce the business i am doing.
i am selling compact flower tea-bag.
which is convenient and easy to carry.
i will also explain the benefit of the tea so that you can understand more and know what suitable for you.

if you are reading this post, kindly click the link below and have a look.
Thanks for the support.

花语茶馆。 Florid Teahouse


等待也好，迷茫也好，都不要把自己留在原地.

以后？

曾经很喜欢很喜欢很喜欢一个人。
第一次那么的喜欢一个人， 因为太喜欢他，所以当时非常的伤心。
伤心了很久很久很久。
有时候会无端端得想到他是否有那么一刻是对我有感觉的，是否心里会有我的位置？
纯碎好奇嘛。
毕竟我那么喜欢他，当时。

从那次以后就再也没有喜欢过人了。
那时候太伤心了。

我会不会以后孤独一个人啊？因为太害怕受伤。

2 dogs in the house

guess what

my dad just brought home a puppy husky which just 21 days old.

i was strongly disagree because we already have a baby creamboy.

in the past 8 years he was the king, how could him accept another one in the house?

but my sis said why not we give a try, maybe they can be fren??

my mum suggests that we can try to raise him for a month and see how is it first.

other than that, we also thinking that the puppy is still very small, yet to do the first vaccine.

thus we decided to raise him for a month..

hopefully both of them can works well! .

hate myself

what an emo day..
seeing frens has developed their own business, achieving their dream.
wat am i doing?
wat have i achieved?

i hate myself for staying not moving forward.
but i dunno wat should i do.
i am so lost..
:( :( :(

i hate myself, 讨厌懦弱的自己..

goals updated

status update......

goals status updated
1) split, it's still not perfect enough!! got to work harder..
2）read 10 articles/blog/news every week.. hahaha, i failed this... 
      change it to 20 a month? 
3) listen  to 5 English conversation every week..i failed this too..hahah 
    change it to 20 a month also? hahha
4) stop buying the things online as i need to save money for 4 months ..another month pass, i did it...
but due to some issue, instead of until August, i think i got to do for another month which is until September.. :(...sad
5) go back to 42 kgs!!!  - finally!!,.attended zumba class, i really sweat alot... i think this is the main reason of losing weight...
but the class already finished.. :( no more Zumba class liao..
maybe dance in the house? hahahh, not a bad idea though..better than doing ntg right? haha
6)enhance the photography skill and knowledge.. any suggestion, kindly drop ur comment here.. :)
7) continue to update my blog for at least once a month..

let's come back again next month :)  

Goals of May

time to check whether the goals i set are achieve or not...

goals of last month..

1) 一字马  i have been practicing for so long, but still i couldnt make it.!! practice make perfect!!

   i have to make it by this month.i still couldnt make it!!..还差一点！...why is this so difficult.
:(

2）read 20 articles/blog/news... yes. i did it! ..woohoo

3) listen 20 English conversation/news/...yes. i did it! ..woohoo

4) stop buying the things online as i need to save money for 4 months because i wanna clear my installment within 4 months..yes, i did! i survived for a month!3 months to go! :(

above is the results of the goal!
dont stop it! , gonna set new goal for May!..hahah

1. continue to do split , not going to stop until i make it... but i think i did wrong during practice. so it didnt works!, is ok, i joined a month of Zumba/pilates/yoga classes, gonna work hard here!
2. instead of saying read 20 articles/blog/news, i gonna make it more specific！read 10 every week! 
3. listen  to 5 English conversation every week.
4. stop buying the things online for another 3 months!
5. go back to 42 kgs!!!  

new goals set!!!