i've started my internship for one week already.
and i'm left
speechless..
it's killing me....
i know im not
ready or matured enough to work now
but i know that this cant be
avoided and it's the reality..
every single moment, i find it hard to
get used to my work..
when i was small and young....
i was well protected by my parents....
and i
do not have to face this kind of problem..
for other ppl, this may seem
to be just a small issue...
but not for me..
ya i know im childish..
im
sorry
i always thought im strong..
im capable of holding back my tears..
especially in front of my love ones..
i did not even shed any tear in
front of them..
because i wanted to hide this feeling from them..
i
always act like im a strong one,
but actually im not....
i cried this past sunday..
i couldnt hold it anymore.
and again ..
i hide
myself in the toilet and cry alone without my parent's knowledge..
i
really felt much better after i cried
however..
i remained positive..
no matter what might come at me in the
future..
i will continue to fight ...
i just have to continuously tell
myself that im better than this..
i must stay strong to get past these 3
months...
stay strong ....!!!!
:')
