my life during intern

i've started my internship for one week already.
and i'm left speechless..
it's killing me....
i know im not ready or matured enough to work now
but i know that this cant be avoided and it's the reality..
every single moment, i find it hard to get used to my work..

when i was small and young....
i was well protected by my parents....
and i do not have to face this kind of problem..
for other ppl, this may seem to be just a small issue...
but not for me..
ya i know im childish..
im sorry

i always thought im strong..
im capable of holding back my tears..
especially in front of my love ones..
i did not even shed any tear in front of them..
because i wanted to hide this feeling from them..
i always act like im a strong one,
but actually im not....

i cried this past sunday..
i couldnt hold it anymore.
and again ..
i hide myself in the toilet and cry alone without my parent's knowledge..
i really felt much better after i cried
however..
i remained positive..
no matter what might come at me in the future..
i will continue to fight ...
i just have to continuously tell myself that im better than this..
i must stay strong to get past these 3 months...

stay strong ....!!!!
:')