who is the right one

SINGLE?

i guess i am just too worried of getting hurt..
i dont think i can stand with this kind of feelings anymore..

i can still remember how hurt it is ....
how long it takes to recover..
how much tears i dropped bcause of this..

i m not going to repeat the same things again,
this is wat i told myself..
since then, i always put myself in a very "safe" place..
not going to hope, not even wants to try...
too much of expectation, that much of disappointment ...
there's an "emergency" button in my brain/heart i think..
whatever i feel that is not so right "it" will automatic stop...

not even started and it already ended..
i can still remember how hurt it is, but i have no idea why it can be that hurt..
i never thought the impact can be that strong until ...

my frens and colleagues used to asked me,
why not u try,u should take out ur first step, otherwise you will lost the person...
why not i try? i tried and i failed...
i should take out the first step? i did, and i failed..
otherwise you will lost the person? it still the same even i did the above..

only then, i figured out if the person really care about you and like you..
he will do the above...
if you ask, dont you worry that you will 错过 the right person..
i will answer not..
if one day i meet the one i like and i missed him because of this,
i will just say that he might not the right one...

sometimes i will still think that “will i still able to meet the one i really like in future?”